what do i want to achieve this year?

to able to take control of my life and knowing my direction
to make disciple, baptising 1 person
to study bible wif my family member
to grow the s14 group
to move on in dating relationship
to inspire the ppl around me to love God
to able master VB.Net and ASP.Net
to start my own small biz
to get a new house

dating convictions

last week is time to reflect a lot about dating convictions that i learn so far from our relationship and also sharing lots to ppl around me about what I believe dating is all about and is not about.. one thing I learn and have strong conviction about is that no matter what u do in a dating relationship, the foundation have to be right, that is to have friendship between 2 person, and of coz not to mention God is alwiz in the middle of this r/s. No matter what u do, wat u give, however strong ur feeling maybe for one another, it will come to a point when this all will die down and will come to 2nd stage where is more about building the relationship and with only deep friendship.. God have an important purpose for us here and that is to love one another, and to show this love that we have.. 2 person need to make the effort to give 'love' to one another.. its not easy and take lots of sacrifice and patience.. this is where God comes into the picture, where in the relationship, the things that we do is to glorify Him and not to fulfil our own needs and want.. it's only when I start to understand this that I see why a lot relationship broke up and didn't work out.. a lot ppl thinking that dating is about its only about 2 person world, and sometimes God doesn't come into picture and also other ppl around also got ignore.. this is somethin that I see also God is teaching us to learn to everyone as ourself.. it's not just about loving ur partner but also the bro n sis coz we are a family..

valentine gifts

jus wan share bout the CD for the valentine gift.. actuali I plan to make a compilation of songs for u, not sure what specific songs for u until one day u told me that u like jazz song and Michael Buble comes into my mind.. so I started searching high and low of all his songs over the past week.. as u can see from the CD that I burn, its actually combination of few albums from him.. from starting till the most recent one.. his song is light jazz and when listen to it can help relax and let can feel lively.. one of the album that I like is the live concert one.. "Caught In The Act" which feature some of his latest song and also got interaction and he got share here and there.. feel like in the live concert listenin him perform too.. u can listen to that album and tell me wat u think..

After finding all the albums, make the nice cover for the CD..then I wanted to burn into CD, so tried to burn at home using the old pc I had but it failed so I try to come back office to burn it, but somehow it still failed to come out correctly.. play then the last few songs kenot play.. so I went back to old ofis to burn for u the Cd again last nit.. lucky tis time it can play correclly the last few songs.. u can try listen to the songs and see if there are ok..

also I manage to get the love story in Harvard soundtrack.. i just burn the main song, if u wan the rest of the song which is mostly just instrumental, got few nice one wif violin and korean song.. if u want that too u can let me know I can burn for u a copy.. the last CD the Pian0 Love songs is compilation of love song and each of this songs have nice lyrics, listen to them and u will know wat I mean..listen to "Without You" to know how I feel livin without u... and hope to have "Endless Love" with you till the end of time.. "You are My Inspiration" is one of my favourite, that is how I feel about u in my life.. Hope u enjoy all the songs in there.. I added one more song to the original complition which is by coldplay.. i like that song a lot..the music is very unique and each time I listen to it I feel like in another world like tat :P

ps. one more Valentine gift I give to on this Saturday date :)

The Longest Way is a Short Cut

Then [Saul] waited seven days, according to the time set by Samuel. But Samuel did not come . . . So Saul . . . offered the burnt offering. Now it happened, as soon as he had finished presenting the burnt offering, that Samuel came . . . And Samuel said, "What have you done?" 1 Samuel 13:8-11

One of the most common obstacles to success is the desire to cut corners. But short cuts never pay off in the long run. If you find that you continually give in to your moods or impulses, then you need to change your approach to doing things. Cutting corners is really a sign of impatience and poor self-discipline. But if you are willing to follow through, you can achieve a breakthrough. The best method is to set up standards for yourself that require accountability. Any time you suffer a consequence for not following through, it helps you stay on track. Once you have your standards in place, work according to them, not your moods. That will get you going in the right direction. Self-discipline is a quality that is won through practice.

MC says..
Self discipline is something that I feel I'm lacking sometime when it come to practicing and following God's command..be it having a consistent quiet time or prayer, loving others, I guess its human nature to go against God, also sometime when we struggle and want to take the easy way out, that's when our self discipine can be bad.. and to keep on having the motivation and discipline, there is a need to have a clear picture of the thing that u want to achieve all the time.. its when this picture fades or bad images from the past failures, our motivation will be lowered and causes our discipline to deteriorate too.. so in order to have a good discipline, something that helps is to alwiz have a clear picture of what u want to achieve and constantly reflecting and checking where are we heading towards our goals just like what the article above mention.

Something that I took notice is about working according to the standards that is set and not according to mood! A lot of time when I don't have the mood or feel emotional, it will take me a long time do even start doing anything.. will take time to ponder on problem and bogged down by my own feelings and emotion.. now its a lot better than last time, last time would struggle a lot when don't have mood, would not able to do anything that is planned, instead just sit there or go to sleep coz dunno how to handle the emotion, as time goes by, learn to see the bad consequences if I don't control this emotion problem cause it can cause things to delay and affected my spirituality and walk with God.. now start to be focus on the things that I suppose to do or things that I already set to do instead of just sitting down and do nothing.. wat a stupid thing to when I reflect back..wasted lots of precious time when if I had better control of my emotions, to even pray for God to help pull thru the struggles and fight harder and not let sin creep into my life..

I think that is what God is trying to tell me so I can experience and be aware of myself better and change from there! If I didn't take time to reflect and continue on doing the same thing, will be living a very ineffective life and continue making the same mistakes and suffer from the bad consequences, just grateful that I got to know God becoz He gave me direction in my life and alwiz guiding me along the way and living a meaningful and impactful life. I'm alwiz reminded by the bible to be the light of the world, to set the example and help ppl to God thru my life :)

some question to get know each other more..

What do you do for fun?
What would be your ideal vacation?
What is the most memorable activity you did with your family as a child?
What quality do you appreciate most in a friend?
What is one characteristic you received from you parents that you want to keep, and one you wish you could change?
What is a good thing happening in your life right now? What makes it good?
If you knew you couldn't' fail and money was no object, what would you like to do in the next five years?
What would you like said at your funeral?
When, if ever, did God become more than a word to you, and how did it happen?

Happy Valentine

I am sending you an early "Valentine" to see if it will make it around the world by Feb. 14th.

For God so loV ed the world,
......That He gA ve
.............His onL y
............BegottE n
...................SoN
.......................T hat whosoever
......Believeth I n Him
..........Should N ot perish,
......But have E verlasting life."

................ John 3:16 ..................

There is no better Valentine than Jesus.
..Happy Valentine to you :)

thikin yest..

thinkin why issit tat u never wan to share to me wat I ask u in tis blog.. and u say tat u got nothin to tok about.. would like to hear wat ur thots are so tat I can oso know where u stand in things and wats ur conviction is about.. wat is it that make u feel difficult to tok to me, is it bcoz of my tone not excitin enuff, or u are not interested to know about anything or want to share about anything to me? can u help me understand what's the matter? I dun think the reason is so simple as u r tired and dun wan to talk.. is it in ur heart u felt that u dun feel good and still not ready to talk? what the things that is stopin u from talking to me? am I still not discussing matter with u? not able to reach deep into ur soul? lots of this things in my mind after I went home.. kenot reali sleep well coz thikin why things is still that bad.. is it somethin i done wrong ? if yes then do let me know... don't let me wonderin wat's wrong bcoz u don't want to share ur thought with me.. It's hard to continue talking if there is no response from u..

another thing tat I hope if u can at least let me know if u are taking time to think of some answer for the question that I ask u, for example when I ask u if u r goin down to sban o not.. I need to ask so many time and yet never got any reply from u, if u still kenot decide, plz let me know u r considering, if u are busy, u can also let me know tat u r busy.. don't let me here waitin and guessing wat ur answers is even after I ask the same questions few time no replies at all.. tis is same for most of the time when i ask u about somethin, u dun seem to wan to give an answer.. i thikin is it bcoz my question not clear enuf for u or u dun feel like answering, I dunno but I hope u can tell me wat is the problem here.. hope to sort tis matter out..

Moving Your Team in the Right Direction

Then all the tribes of Israel came to David at Hebron and spoke, saying "The Lord said to you, 'You shall shepherd My people Israel, and be rulerof Israel.'" Therefore all the elders of Israel came to the king at Hebron, and King David made a covenent with them at Hebron before the Lord.And they anointed David king over Israel. 2 Samuel 5:1-3

Do you remember what it was like when you first got your driver's license? Just going for a drive was probably a thrill. It didn't really matter where you went. But as you got older, having a destination became more important. The same is true with a team. Getting the team together and moving it are accomplishments. But where you're going matters.

You've got to begin doing the difficult things that help the team to improve and develop high morale. Among other things, you must:
1. Make changes that make the team better.
2. Receive the buy-in of team members.
3. Communicate commitment.
4. Develop and equip members for success.

The two toughest stages in the life of a team are when you are trying to create movement in a team that's going nowhere, and when you must become a change agent. Those are the times when leadership is most needed.

its not easy being a change agent. need lots effort and so far I see myself still not able to be a very effective change agent.. do u alwiz see urself as a change agent to others? what are the things that u think u can help change in others?

Earn Trust By Doing the Right Thing

For Ezra had prepared his heart to seek the Law of the Lord, and to do it, and to teach statutes and ordinances in Israel. Ezra 7:10

Even at a young age, Ezra diligently studied and learned to become a scholar. He won the respect of many, including the political leader of the land of his exile, King Artaxerxes. He established his connections and influence over time-a necessary step if the dream of restoring Jerusalem were to be fulfilled.
As a result of many years of consistently doing the right thing, the king finally trusted Ezra with great power and resources, acknowledging his character qualities in writing. He provided all that Ezra needed to get the job done.
Ezra led many Israelites back to Jerusalem during this time of restoration. As a spiritual leader, Ezra had prepared, studied, and connected with many ordinary Jews, and his pronounced influence prompted many to follow him to Jerusalem. Ezra did not utilize his power, intellect, and influence for personal gain, but rather to restore Jerusalem. Throughout his life, Ezra exercised the best leader's qualities with both passion and zeal.

something that I believe is to be a leader it takes lots of consistency on the things we are doin. no matter what things that we are workin on, we have to doing things consistently and even turn it in to out habit.. good habits! tat is wat a leader can do by passing on the right conviction to others.. I want to pass on my conviction to help the group.. to let them know how important it is to seek, love and save the lost.. one thing I know we have to be consistent keeping in touch wif the lost and show our love and care for them just like how God first show His love for each and everyone of us.. need to alwiz remind everyone to do followup, and constant talk about friend that we want to reach out to, to really have the heart and making it a habit to reach out and sharing the gospel to ppl around us.. start wif the ppl close to us, family members and relatives, good friends, collies, neighours and to strangers.

Yesterday felt bit discaouraged to see no bro turn up for the evangalism and if this continue on, God's work will be negleted and its not goin to be very fruitful each time go evangalise but only one o 2 person turn up.. it would be better if everyone can at least commit one day of the week to reaching out to the lost, if not making it a habit to talk to ppl wherever we are..life style kind of evangalism.. i wonder if anyone in the group does this.. I'm very inspired by Bee Gaik last time to alwiz hear her share bout her many stories of ppl she reach out to while on her way to work.. and few time I saw busy fellowshipin wif other ppl in LRT last time.. its would be so refreshing and lift our faith higher when ppl would go the extra mile for God, and I know I definitely lacking in this area, I need to start by setting the example, that the role of the leader, to make the first step so that the rest get inspired and motivated to do the right thing and it would definitely earn trust among the followers.. u can take tis time to think about wat is it that u wan the ppl under ur care to follow and wat kind of example that u hope they can learn from u.. share to me ok?

Instrument of God

interestin story i stumble upon while searchin the net bout Mormon in tis site http://www.doesgodexist.org/Phamplets/ProblemOfHumanSuffering.html
tis last part is talkin bout being instrument of God.. convicts me tat we as christians are instruments / tools of God to help save the world !

One time a young lady, a Red Cross nurse, was in Pennsylvania when a terrible train wreck occurred. People were injured, bleeding, and dying everywhere. She came before other medical help arrived, and began to meet the needs of these people the best she could. One of the first people she saw was a man in a business suit walking around in a state of shock saying over and over again, "My instruments, my instruments! If only I had my instruments!" She administered to his needs, and got him out of his state of shock. As she turned to leave him she said to him, "Sir, I just wondered if you could tell me something. As you saw all these terrible injuries you kept wailing around saying, 'My instruments, my instruments, if only I had my instruments!' What was going through your mind?" The man stood up and said to her, "Young lady, I better introduce myself." He told her his name. He said that he was a head surgeon in a hospital near there, and all he could think of as he looked around and saw all these terrible injuries was that if only he had his surgical tools (his instruments), he could help meet these people's needs and bring relief to their pain and suffering.

My friend, I wonder how many times God in heaven looks down at the problems this earth has, looks at you and looks at me and says, "My instruments, my instruments, if only I had my instruments!!! " Are you an instrument of God? You need to answer that for yourself right now. Are you an instrument of God? Are you a tool of the Lord bringing joy, peace, and relief into the lives of people? Or are you a part of the problem bringing pain and despair because of your lack of involvement? You cannot be an instrument of God unless you are forged according to God's plan. The blacksmith cannot make an ax unless he uses a plan or a pattern. God said you must believe in him. Don't you believe? Are you willing to admit this belief, which we call confession? Are you willing to live God's system and repent and turn away from the world's way of life? Are you willing to be forged in God's system by being buried in water in baptism for the remission of your sins to become an instrument of God? Then, as an instrument of God, use your talents and your abilities to bring joy, relief, peace, love, and understanding into a world so desperately in need of these things? There are some of you who undoubtedly have been instruments of God at one time. But you are just like the ax that the blacksmith made. When he finished making it, it was beautiful, shiny, and new. Then somebody left it in the garden and it has been unused and been exposed to the elements and the forces of this world. Just like that ax, you have become rusty, corroded, something that nobody wants to have anything to do with, despicable because you are no longer a beautiful, shiny, clean useful instrument of God. Will you be an instrument of God? Will you be a part of the Lord's work? If you will be an instrument of God and if you will follow God's system you have the greatest promise that can be made to a person considering human suffering and pain and death. "And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away" (Revelation 21:4). Be an instrument of God!

Boundaries

another new week to go thru.. started readin the boundary book and from first chapter it gave me a good in sight of more things that I can learn about boundary, the first chapter is a story of a mom who doesn't know her boundaries and it affected her life a lot.. her working life, with frens, church and even her relationship wif her husband and children face bad consequences, everyone around her taking the full use of her and she not able to control her own life..she doesn't know when to say 'No' bcoz she doesn't set any boundaries, its like her whole life is about other ppl and as I read, I also examine my own life and learn that I also sometime lacking of boundaries in my life.. I hope i can finish this book by the end of this month and understand more about boundaries and take control of my own life! A lot time bcoz I lackin in boundaries, the decision I make is not only not very wise and somehow affect how I live my life, and I think of the future, it will also affect how my family be in the future coz I dunno o not sure when to say 'yes' or when to say 'no'.. It makes me to start thinkin of many decision in past that I did a lot of them is without boundaries and it's good that this book explain it from the biblical point of view, am sure after goin thru tis book I can learn to set boundaries for myself and take tis opportunity to practice it.. I got to understand more of what Vincent was trying to tell me and also another bro.. even the first chapter give me some insight of wat boundary is..

The other day during Sunday lunch time, I was there wif Vincent and another bro, he shared about his family financial struggle.. and he had to start giving more to his parent bcoz his parent need more money.. but the problem is that his dad needed more money for his gambling and smoking habit, and the bro still cannot see that by giving more money to his parent, it only make things worst bcoz its not helpin his parent, but encouraging them to indulge in the gambling & smoking even more.. I can understand why he still wanted to continue give is bcoz as a son to father, its would show his gratitute and repect for the parent, he also mentioned about since the father is old oledi, the best thing that he can do 'help' his parent is to provide them money.. I know it's not easy for him coz he also love his parent.. and Vincent also suggest that he talk to the rest of his brother n sister to also contribute coz they are also working and also is part of the family.. and somemore this bro is still single and want to get steady and one day get married, how is he goin to continue to give for the rest of his life to his parent when he doesn't have much saving for himself, from the consersation I learn that it very important to make a stand to do the right thing and know when to to say 'No' when it come to giving money to parent.

Vincent also mention that not giving to his parent doesn't show he is selfish and not being a good son, he has to learn about his own boundaries and make the right decision. Vincent also say somethin about does his 'helping' really helping his parent.. that was somethin tat stuck in my mind for sometime and when I read the book.. i understand more about 'helping' someone.. to help someone means to bring a person to another level where they can be self sufficient and capable of handling things on thier own.. and if the 'help' that was given doesn't achieve this goal, it's not actually helping the other person. Often as Christians, we focus so muchh on loving and unselfish that we can forget our own limits and limitations. This book will help me learn how to set healthy boundaries with different ppl in my life and also myself, and this boundaries will give me freedom to walk as the loving, giving, fulfilled individuals God created me to be.. as for ur financial problem, will need sit down wif u and talk wif u and understand fully and give u my point of view of what I think and also hopefully help u see the point of view that I see and will help u overcome this burden that u have for ur parent. olite.. gtg back to work.. write more later..